Monday, 20 January 2014
I have a confession to make…….
YES….I am a craft hoarder….. there….. I said it! It’s been driving me balmy for weeks, no, months now…..and it’s sucking all my creative juices dry….. I know I have a bad habit of collecting things like a bower bird…..just in case it will come in handy…and I can never find it when I need it anyway….and when I do discover it, it’s like having something new because I forgot I even had it… ….and I put things off ….and off…..and off……(c’mon….let’s be honest…you know what I’m like so you know what I mean!!!!) And I have been trying to address this over the past few months with subscribing to organisational newsletters and printing out lists and diaries, doing procrastination workshops….the 21 day change-your-behaviour program…...reading so many self help books it would make your eyes bulge…….you name it, I’ve done it. Hence you will have noticed my spasmodic posts and blog hopping since before Christmas……this has really been getting me down, so on Friday, I went and had a chat to one of my bestest buddies Jen ……you know, the type of friend who will be brutally honest with you without being hurtful and who will help you discover what’s going on inside the good ol’ grey matter without even trying…..just by talking like great friends do….better than any therapist, I’d say!!!!! And she reminded me of the parable of the Ant…..who could lift his own weight, and who could build huge anthills but just took it one grain of sand at a time…..bit by bit……slowly slowly, without self-criticism, without self-loathing, without condemnation until before you knew it, the anthill was built. Well that was enough to get me started………I have been dreading going into my craftroom that is bursting at the seams as I just didn’t know where to start…..so I did just that……started…..one grain of sand at a time……. ..without self hate (even though there were a number of times I felt like chucking it in, because I just didn’t know where to move ….) so I started small and kept positive….you’ll notice the plastic containers on the cutting table…….my first attempt at organising the masses…..that’s stuff that was coming out of the white cupboard that just isn’t functional as it’s too crammed….so that went into the garage to store other garage-y ‘stuff’. . Without self criticism, even though I don’t like what I’ve created and what that’s made me feel like ….. I can’t bear to get rid of the many MANY magazines I’ve collected over the years…….(well….they cost too much, don’t they??? and I love all of the ideas ….that I rarely get to see, mind you, because I can’t get to them!!!!!) see where I’m going???? I’m on the right path….I can’t get rid of them just yet, but they’re moving to a new home until I’m ready to part with them….the umbilical cord is being cut….slowly slowly……. Without condemnation…..even though the teetering piles of goodies often fall to the floor…..they have been moved there from the white cupboard that has been removed as a temporary measure, until I relocate the mags and add some new shelves where the cupboard used to be…..(see?? Plan in action….one grain of sand at a time!!) I’m getting somewhere! Now you probably can’t see much difference yet as it’s still a work in progress, but the sewing machine has been moved from the cutting table to my new sewing machine table (which is now at the right height for sewing…aaaaaahhh!!!) and my ironing pad and drawers are below where the shelves will be (where the old white cupboard was.) So please forgive me for my tardiness and inconsistencies of late, but I’ve had to come to terms with who I really am as opposed to who I would really like to be…(a super organised, neat and tidy designer who has it all under control) ….AND be content with it…. I’m the ant…..one grain at a time!!!!! I’ll be back tomorrow with signups for FNSI and photos from our first Monday sewing group day for the year!!!! xox Sugary hugs :o)